Namasté!
My name is Aislinn. I am delighted you have found my site. I hope to provide you with useful
information and a glimpse of my ethereal path.
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Here is a little background info on me:
I am currently 33, married, and mother of 2 wonderful kids. I have been attuned to Reiki (master level),
Seichim (master level), and Lavender Flame energies. I currently use Reiki the most and, upon request and at my discretion, will send free distant Reiki-healing sessions.
I have been interested in
Witchcraft for a number of years, dating back to my childhood. I was first introduced to Witchcraft when I was 11
when my mother bought a book on it and I found it. I experimented with a few spells, but didn't understand anything
regarding the how's and why's of it. At the time, I was going to a Christian church and school and didn't really
give it my full attention.
I had numerous questions about what I was learning in church and felt that I wasn't getting the whole story.
At the age of 15 or 16 I stopped going to church and just went on with my life with no religious or spiritual
guidance.
When I was about 26 or 27 I started thinking about my experiences with Witchcraft and decided to
start
researching it. I was very surprised with what I found, and very excited. This sounded like something that
resonated with me and I wanted to learn more. As time went on, I knew this was the path for me, even though my
husband did not (and does not at this time) agree.
When I told my mother of my research, she told me that that when I was
around 4 or 5 my great-grandmother (who was Native American) had told her that I was a Witch. I also learned that my grandmother
on my mom's side (who was born and raised in
England) was a tealeaf reader and was involved in seances and things of that sort.
I have been practicing my spirituality for over 5 years now. I consider myself an eclectic Witch, because
I do not follow only one way of thinking. I choose to use what feels right to me and discard that which doesn't
resonate with my soul.
I am sure to have thoughts and ideas that will not resonate with you, so when you read through my site be sure to
keep an open mind. If it doesn't feel right to you, then just disregard it. If it does work for you, then great!
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Here are some of my poems that I have posted to the internet in various places. These are MY original works.
I wrote this during a time we were experiencing severe thunderstorms in my area.
Sky
7/6/04
I see the brilliant flashes
The power flowing through
I hear the rumbling thunder
And I think of you
The cleansing rain is falling
To purify the Earth
I stand in my circle –
The circle of rebirth
I give thanks to you
I know you hear my call
And in my daily life
I give to you my all
In darkness between flashes
I see your lovely face
There is nothing I want more
I am happy in this place.
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I wrote this for a group I co-host.
A Circle Of Friends
8/24/05
In the sacred circle we call our own
Seeds of friendship are sweetly sown
A circle of friends, that’s what we are
A group of people from near and far
Who come together to show that they care
by emails and posts of support and to share
in the joys of the day, and sorrows, too
My life has been blessed by dear friends like you!
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This raw poem came to me one rainy night in January 2006 when I was working through some issues.
It seems like the rain plays an interesting role in my creativity...
Suppose The Rain
Suppose the rain
Could wash away pain
Cleansing my brain
Of the hurts that remain
From my past?
And if the rain clears
Away all the fears
And hurts I have held near-
I must accept that the here
And now has freed me.
Then I no longer need
To water and feed
The doubts of this weed-
But plant a new seed
Of forgiveness in my heart.
Now I feel the rain
Water the seed
Of forgiveness.
All the past is gone
And the future not yet here
But the here and now
Has freed me.
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I wrote this on 2/13/06...
Magickal Dreams
In the land known as Sleep
There is a different side of me.
Magickal dreams fall like mist;
My silken shadow dances among the trees
And I am soaked in moonlight.
Again and again I sway with the breeze
Of a gathering storm that sends me turning;
Guided by the moon I float among the stars.
Beginning to end, end to beginning
I weave my dream in the midnight hour.
In the cloak of night there is a place of peace
Where I can dance to the music in my heart.
A place where no one else can go;
Where no one wonders about my sanity
And moonlight surrounds the edges of my spirit.
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I wrote this one on 8/30/06 when I was doing some deep thinking on what my spiritual path means to me.
Ethereal Path
Moonlight illuminates the ethereal path.
A haunting melody soars as if on the wings of poetic flight.
The shadows caress me and I embrace the moment.
Silently I reflect on the energy that flows through the night.
On the ethereal path I am free,
I know this is where I belong.
I am One with the moon and stars,
Goddess beckons and I respond to her Song.
I hear the whispers of nature and the elements,
Secrets revealed- such a feeling of peace.
‘Round and ‘round the circle is cast-
The magick is woven and then released.
The essence of All- like a spark in the dark,
Forms an image in my mind and enlightens my perception.
The night is real; not a glimpse of a dream,
Understanding floods my soul at this beautiful conception.
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Having a rough night, I wrote out my thoughts and feelings as best I could. 11/06
Chaos
I'm struggling - I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of chaotic emotions.
The tears flood my heart,
The pain rips my soul.
Something I have no name for courses through my body.
I feel like I'm being split in two.
I want peace; I want harmony
Yet somehow I don't know how to connect.
I'm selfish, I'm resentful;
I'm childish, I'm uncertain of how I want to be...
Who am I?
Am I who I want to be?
Who do I want to be?
Is she inside this shell?
My tangled emotions cry out for release.
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I wrote this on 3/7/07 when contemplating all the possibilities of life. By changing your thoughts, you can change your life.
Open
I open my mind
To all that can be,
All it takes is a thought-
And now I am free.
I open my eyes,
No longer blind;
I see what was hidden,
It’s all been defined.
I open my heart,
To create and expand-
I allow life to happen;
And hold fate in my hand.
I open my soul,
To the amazing potential
Of this endless journey-
So wild and wonderful.
Will you open your mind
To the possibilities?
Just change your thoughts
So you can be free.
Will you open your eyes
And begin to explore?
Everything’s clear now,
You’re free to soar.
Will you open your heart-
Leave behind pain and despair?
Discover your truth.
Do you even care?
Will you open your soul
And finally find-
That you have it all
And it’s all in your mind?
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Just some thoughts floating around my head...
Searching For Significance
4/18/07
Searching for significance
Of that which lies within;
I close my eyes, the time has come
I’m ready to begin.
A kaleidoscope of images
Reflect illusions of the day
I try to find a reference point
To guide me on my way.
Waxing, waning, light, or dark-
Which one holds the key?
Seeking patterns that become
The shape of destiny.
The time has come to make a choice,
Truth hides behind the shadow.
The silence reveals nothing
Of the Self I do not know.
I’m feeling broken, left in fragments
Though alive without, alive within-
The facade crumbles; who is left
Of the ‘me’ I’ve always been?
It is time to raise my voice,
But will it go unheard?
A whisper, a scream, a prayer, a cry-
To break the silence undeterred.
Slowly I become aware
As tears fall down my face,
All is well; time will heal
The pain I have embraced.
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I wrote this in about 10 minutes, letting the words flow from the pen, not really thinking about the words...just writing.
Shades Of Grey
7/11/07
Why does it always seem
As if nothing is ever black and white
But always shades of grey?
I feel so empty, yet strangely heavy
Confusion weaves a web of haze;
I'm not alone, so why do I feel this way?
Feeling lost and sad, tired and frustrated
I say goodbye to that which feels
As if it could tear me apart.
Memories suck away my energy
It's time I put ME first
I've got to find the light in the dark.
Days go by and I feel fine,
And I wonder if it was all a dream;
Then all of a sudden darkness falls.
Though I'm surrounded by others
I always feel disconnected-
On the outside looking in, sadness calls.
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I'm always there for you - I'm your everything,
yet you really don't know me at all.
You act surprised when I let slip some of what I'm feeling.
You judge me and think I'm being 'silly' or 'ridiculous'.
You say I shouldn't feel like that.
You don't understand and you aren't comfortable
with deep discussions.
So I say never mind and I pretend that everything's fine,
even though it sometimes feels like I'm living a lie -
like I'm smiling on the outside and dying inside.
I am my own worst enemy.
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Things are looking up. 8/21/07
The Lady In The Mirror
I gaze into the mirror
And find gazing back at me-
A reflection of the woman
That I have come to be.
I look closely for a sign
Of the secrets that she holds;
I smile at her and she smiles back-
How will this now unfold?
Inner battles she has won
Leave no lines upon her face.
Delusions fade away;
Reality takes its place.
She’s feeling better now
And has come to realize,
A newfound happiness
Is burning in her eyes.
Coming out of the darkness-
Yes, this is what feels right;
Those shades of grey now soften
As she moves into the light.
There is no turning back now,
It’s time I made this clearer
“Welcome to my life,” I say
To the lady in the mirror.
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I wrote this on 10/10/07 during a dark mood.
On the Edge
The responsibilities of life weigh heavily on my head
And sometimes I think it is more than I can bear.
But I’ve managed to make it this far; tears uncounted, words unsaid.
Sadness, resentment, selfishness, fear, and empty words
Seem to encompass so many these days.
When I speak, I wonder if I am ever truly heard.
How can I not be affected by desperation’s icy touch?
I’m living on the edge – a mere sigh away from a fall.
I’ve been told I feel too much; but how much is too much?
Haven’t I said this before? Words fall on deaf ears.
And how many really care?
The rain falls in empathy with my tears.
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This is another I wrote also on 10/10/07 upon some deep thinking about the state of the world.
Reclaiming Peace
Many people are dissatisfied, so desperate for attention,
For the need to feel important that they are compelled to do ‘something’
Just to make a difference, no matter how terrible or good their intention.
Why do so many people hurt others with their words, attitudes, and actions?
Is it too idealistic to wish that we could all just live and let live?
How can I go through life and not be affected by all that’s going on?
The simple answer is that I can’t. Asking why does no good.
As long as people don’t consider themselves a part of the whole
And connected to all life, then this ideal will not be understood.
Rising above greed, anger, hatred, fear, and despair
In order to embrace the beauty and sanctity of life
Is what we all should be doing to show that we care.
We all may appear different, yet at the core we’re the same;
If we dwell in love and the possibility of all we can do
Then anything’s possible and peace we can reclaim.
But since we can only act for one self, let’s do our best
To be a good example to others we meet on the way;
Then perhaps in the end all will be blessed.
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This is my first writing for 2008; written 2/10/08.
The Edge of Forever
Give thanks and rejoice;
Live with intention.
Think good thoughts-
And focus your attention
To find and follow your own path-
And dwell in possibility;
Breathe deeply and smile,
Say yes to positivity.
Welcome in the energy
And you will surely find
The gifts of joy and bliss,
Gratitude, and peace of mind.
Bring your awareness to today
And make your dreams come true.
Change happens at the speed of thought
Create a living, laughing, loving you!
Tomorrow will take care of itself;
Today is the edge of forever.
Create the reality of love and peace,
Embrace this worthy endeavor.
So think good thoughts
And focus your attention-
And remember the power
Of deliberate intention.
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Having some more deep thoughts 5/8/08 ...
From the quagmire of my mind:
Musing the Shadow
Where did the time go? I wonder what went wrong.
Time passes much too quickly; it is here, and now it’s gone.
I seem to have lost myself somewhere along the way,
Feeling out of control and struggling day by day.
I’ve sacrificed myself too much; I wonder what’s left to give.
Hide the pain; choke back the tears- this is no way to live.
Confusion swirls around me like a dense fog in my head
My heart is pounding heavily, full of panic, fear, and dread;
I feel my fragile psyche is like a child that has been spoiled-
Throwing fits and tantrums, feeling tightly coiled.
I know what’s done is done but I can’t seem to let go
Of my unhappiness and learn to take it slow.
Depression has its hold on me, though some days are better than others,
I try and try to make it work but sometimes I feel so smothered.
The more I search my inner mind, the less I understand
Why I feel the way I do- how much more can I withstand?
Frustration flashes through me as I try to find the source
Of all of my unhappiness so I can try to change the course
Of this wild and crazy, never-ending roller-coaster ride;
And embrace my life (both ups and downs)-to fill the void inside.
It’s time to move on, now- and let go of this despair;
Completely tear down the walls in order to prepare
To break the chain and leave behind the sadness of the past,
And reach for joy in simple ways- each better than the last.
I’ll change my thoughts, one at a time; make peace with my decisions-
And forgive myself for naïveté borne from perceived imperfections;
I’ll let go of expectations, just learn to live for today-
Now! Before it becomes just another yesterday
Though time won’t stop or slow, I need to believe it’s not in vain
That all this thinking wasn’t wasted and I’ll find myself again.
Shining out my ultimate truth, and truly be happy being Me-
Accepting that I am not a woman without identity
Discovering who I am through a soul-searching quest
May help me finally be and do my very best
In all of my endeavors- mentally, physically, and spiritually, too
To live my life in harmony and to myself be true.
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